graham is really 3 right now. and for a while i wondered what was wrong with him and then i remembered that 3 isn't my very favorite age and one day he'll be 4 and everything will be ok again. he growls and roars like a dinosaur or a lion or a tiger and shoots people dead all day long. even typing those words makes me cringe. all day "buddy we don't shoot people dead, that hurts so much and we don't hurt people right?" "yes we do!" he growls and my heart shrivels and turns black cause how in the heck did I get a kid that even dares say the word "shoot"????? oh how it hurts admitting that. ANYWAY....i still really like him, but the other night i was laying by him and when I lay by my kids they get a couple songs sung to them and then i get sleepy and they get a couple songs hummed to them and then i fall asleep and wonder where in the world my "get stuff done" time went. so i was at the humming stage of the night when i felt someone looking at me, you know how can just feel it even when your eyes are closed? so i opened up one eye and graham was about 3 inches from my face staring at me with the sweetest little smile on his face. so i smiled back and stuck my head in his neck and gave him kisses and asked him what he was smiling at and he says in this sleepy little smiley voice, "i'm smiling at you cause...... i just love you". oh the swooning!!! what a boy. totally melted me all over. redeemed for the day buddy.