redeeming

its odd how kids go though so many different stages with their emotions.  sometimes it feels like one kid will be grumpy for a good 6 months and then one morning they wake up happy and the grumps are just gone. i've been thinking a lot about this lately and decided maybe its not just kids, maybe it's moms and dads too.  i swear though that one kid will finally get past a hard patch and another one who was so easy for so long will all the sudden become not so easy any more.  or the very worst, when 2 or 3 of them are grumpy at the same time, ahhhhh!

Anyway, not to rat out my poor kids, but graham has been in a funk lately and i don't really blame him, but he has these really redeeming moments.  and he's learning to "wescue and save!" people instead of shoot them dead, so that is a huuuuge improvement.  We've had lots of talks about how it's better to be a hero that saves people than a bad guy who shoots them.  Anyway (again), why i'm writing this is to remember what he said last night when we were cuddling.  He was all smiling and happy and he said, "ya know my heart is just soooo full of love."  and then gave that little graham grin with his eyes shut tight.  it's the same way he smiles when we puts something really yummy in his mouth too.  and then he said, "and my heart is also all full of little hearts!".  What a goose.  i love him.

we finally put up our trampoline again. "we" meaning brandon.  holy smokes trampolines are the very best thing in the whole world and also a little crummy.  i jumped with grady yesterday and laughed harder than i had in a long time.  his fish and zombie jumps made me have to take a bathroom break.  he gets funnier every week.  oh it felt good to laugh in the sunshine.  side note about sunshine - i like to eat my breakfast in the sunshine in the mornings.  it comes in our windows and i scoot right over to where it is and eat there on the floor in a ball and usually someone finds me and climbs on my back.  leah has decided she also likes to eat in the sunshine and sometimes will not eat anywhere but in the "shunshine" it's adorable and unnerving at the same time.  I put that trampolines are crummy because poor graham and leah got conked around like rag dolls sometimes and 75% of the time on the tramp is  spent laughing and 25% of the time is spent screaming.  leah calls it the "jumpaline".

sometimes when i don't want to decide who was right or wrong i tell grady and graham to wrestle it out.  graham's little determined face with his cheeks all red is one of the best things i've ever seen.  and as long as grady isn't too hard on him they end up laughing instead of fighting.  wonder how many more years that will work?

i've felt kinda flustered with clara lately and i started praying really hard about it and my prayers were immediately answered.  it blew me away.  It was like Heavenly Father was just waiting for me to offer that prayer because he so bad wanted to answer it.  it was amazing and i feel like i see this little girl in a different light and i am so so grateful for it.  me and clara are so much a like in ways that are hard sometimes and really different in ways that are hard too.  but i will keep praying and me and her are gonna be ok.  she is such a good good girl.

and thats all.